Elizabeth Gilbert posted this quote on her Facebook page, and it struck a chord deep within me. I purposely did not read what she wrote, because I'm having my own epiphany right now, and didn't want her beautifully eloquent prose to muddy my experience. I'll undoubtedly go back and read it later, but for the moment...
I'm really struggling to define my purpose with my Facebook page and blog, because all the experts assure me I'm supposed to have one! I'm supposed to "solve your problem", or "empower you to...blah, blah, blah..", so that eventually I'll be able to create a huge mailing list, which I can use to make money off of you, but that all feels so disrespectful, so conniving, so mistrusting of your experience of life.
I've been struggling with this for so long because I realize that there is nothing wrong with you. You don't need my help, or anyone else's, and you certainly don't need fixing. Even though it may feel like it sometimes, you're not broken.
Truthfully, I feel like a hypocrite by claiming to be an "expert" when I'm still just figuring my way through life just like everyone else.
Help you find your way? Fuck that shit!
Empower yourself! I'll cheer you on!
Fall on your face! I will be an anchor for you as you learn the lesson and rise stronger!
Scream! I'll hold you and not try to tell you what you're supposed to think and feel.
I trust you, trust your experience of life, and know that the greatest gift in life is learning to trust yourself.
In fact, I realize that I don't want to help you do anything, and I don't want you to help me either.
What I want to do is share my experience of life with you, and give you a safe place to share yours with no fear of judgement, and no expectation that somebody else needs to fix you, or heal you, or light your path. You are whole and beautiful and flawed and gorgeous, and fully capable of learning your own lessons, and healing your own heart and mind.
At last, I feel free to live and create and share and not give a damn if I write in obscurity for the rest of my life! I'll write books, and share them with you. I'll speak publicly, and let you know where and what I'll be talking about. But I won't disrespect you with an endless litany of sales pitches.